Stomach

For some reason, whenever I get close to getting what I want I get pretty bad stomachaches. I don't know if it's nerves or just that I have a weird system, or whether anyone else has this, but like, when I'm anticipating a package, when I opened my acceptance letters, everything, stomachache. Then, since I recognize what causes the stomachache, I often try to convince myself and others that I didn't want the thing in the first place so as to assuage my pain.